At some point, it will probably feel absolutely normal when someone tell me "I am falling in love with you" or "You broke my heart!".And I wouldn't even blink.
However, at this moment, I am not that jaded yet - and so when I got a text message from this guy with the latter content, I was shaken for a few seconds. The first reaction was to sit down and take a deep breath. In some way, it felt very similar to being pointed out, mistakenly, as a thieve in a public place - or at least, that's what I usually imagine it to feel like, not that I've ever been in that situation.
Anyway, this friend of mine - whom I like dearly, even now - and I have been hanging out for a month or so. We liked each other very much, and loved spending time together doing more than just physical activities. The reason for it being relatively casual was that he would move away very soon for work - and obviously I've got my own career to pursue as well, so there's no reason to go too deep into anything that we couldn't commit ourselves too. That made sense - well, at least until he allegedly developed unexpected affections for me and expected me to feel the same way - and ultimately sent the accusatory SMS above.
After recovered from the unexpected accusation, I was confused, and then very upset. I felt like people, in this and a few other similar incidences, had victimized themselves and then tried to put me to blame. It was ME who behave like myself, ME who made them fall in love, and ME who broke their heart. All of this, I had almost no control - but when it came to blaming someone, I was the one, despite having been straightforward and honest, who misled them to misery.
In the end, after all that anger, I just felt sad for failing to make someone happy.
And that's the biggest disappointment of all.
Credit: Broken Heart - by Deak04
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